Day one.
It was my first day in the mansion. I was reminded by my memories of the first time I saw this place. But it was only on the outside. Now I’m terrified of the sudden turn of events now that I am about to live a grand life…at least for the public. Prestige in the midst of the pretense. Confidence in the midst of the confusion. I felt something in my head.
A certain nerve tightening with all the fast paced and relatively new sensory inputs. Somewhere, another nerve’s relaxing to the action of the first one, seemingly giving way to the action of the first nerve. Surely, my brain’s opening new portals as I get to be exposed to new things and I am not sure if the new faculties that are activated would be beneficial in the times to come or not. Suddenly if felt confident that I am not alone here. My mindset was established and I vowed that from now on, I shall be guided by the trinity that is in my head. This trinity, based on what mother and father taught me through the years, are nothing but the three attributes you can rely on when you feel alone in a hall full of people- people of different backgrounds and cares and worries.
I now knew that from now on, I am only gonna be listening to Self-Trust, Wishful Thinking, and the Will. They’re all in my head and I hope they wouldn’t conquer more of what they can or I’ll look silly in public. I’m thankful I was able to form this trinity in order to survive this chaos.
I grew up in a quiet town with a family that is quite normal. School has always excited me for it is the only place, that I know off, where I can express myself fully. Most of the pupils in my class don’t feel the same. But I prefer the interactive environment of my school than the quietness of my home.
What challenged my confidence, which until now is a problem already ingrained in me, is that I did not excel in my academics. I don’t see the point why everyone’s got to study science when clearly everyone is built for something unique. To each his/her own. What I liked about school, and where I excelled in, is gymnastics. I love anything that uses the entire body. I also like art and anything involving public speaking. Standing up in front of the class is a piece of cake. I like being able to shine and outshine others even if I’m a little dim when it comes to those you need to pass.
Now, my school life seems like a fraction of the reality. Here I am outshining others, seeing my face flood the news around the world. I am still the same me. Nothing’s changed. In this new life, I’m still the person with the same weaknesses. It’s just that, from now on, you are not allowed to show them. No one must know as if the weaknesses are evidences of a crime. And inside me, I know there’s something new that has never been used before that can help me. Will, Wishful Thinking and Self-Trust as one. They say three cords make a stronger rope. We’ll see about that.